doe eyes in mirror staring through trying not to focus. she can’t look me in the eye can’t be too friendly in public—i have the same problem with everybody very similar scared to show ourselves insecure i’m getting better maybe she is too but not with us—she’s scared looking to new friends all hinging on one guy what happens when it crashes down?
nice to know she thought about road trips, leadville virginia state parks small towns romance. kinda surprised me when she brought it up, wouldn’t go in the water i pulled her in up to her tummy (hi tummy). mixed success today, pulled her in like to think i made a difference but then i was harsh and rough same thing she does try no to show deep emotions to public eye, doe eyes show it—lonely tender strong confused happy sad. gotta work, fuck everyone else—i should treat her like a princess anyway shower her with attention what would she do? scary, risk takers rule the world, wait for perfect opportunity but keep the faith in between too.
wish we had more time to talk—she wants me to stay with her in hotel. why? just for money split or is there more? probably nothing just my wishful thinking making something from nothing. still what was there cannot be erased just pushed away rearranged in memory but can’t deny what once existed it’s real and it changed but that doesn’t mean it’s not for real, i can see in doe eyes please don’t look away don’t be hard don’t be like me…i know you can’t express it neither can i, but can you see it please let’s just recognize. take a look in my eyes doe eyes all we need is to look deep just for a moment share our doe eyes.
but that comes later, today just want to say thanks for coming doe eyes.