Feeling a bit bummed…Hope winter ends soon and warm weather breaks me out of slump. I feel like I’ve been drifting in and out of slump for long time now. Coupla years. Gee—that sounds pathetic.
Not really true. Lots has happened. Quit job. DJ. Finding new path. New lifestyle. New interests. New knowledge.
New experience? Not where it counts. Mixtures of wasted effort, obsession, complacency.
Now sabotaging friendship. Telling lies and playing games. Lost sight of purpose. Trying to find emotion where perhaps there isn't any.
This entry is not about being angry or sad or restless or upset. Actually, I feel perfectly calm most of the time; I don’t feel anything. That’s the problem.